ultrasound results

Well, I finally had my next ultrasound, after what has seemed like forever, and did find out the sex. It is a girl. I am happy but sad, I really wanted to give hubby a boy and I also felt like a boy would have been much easier to raise. I am filled with so much doubt now. If I have a prissy girl I will not know how to relate to her. I am a farm girl, I hate to wear dresses and the color pink, I hate painting my nails and I don't even wear makeup. There is no place for any of that stuff on farms and thats how I was raised and still am that way. What if I have a girl that wants all that stuff? What will I do? Will I be a good mom? Hubby says its okay, he will still teach her to fish, do woodworking, run electrical and all those things he likes to do. I am just worried that if we decided not to have another child that a boy would have been better. I am really scared of having another one at this point, because with the diabetes thing and the other complications I have had with this one, what if next time is worse? Besides, the more pregnancies I have the higher risk I have of developing diabetes later in life. That is a truely devastating disease that i want no part of! I have been around it fiirst hand for the last 7 years of my life and it is really scary. i have always said I didn't believe in only 1 child beacuse then that kid gets too spoiled. but I said that before I got pregnant and started going through everything. I have got to quit with the "I will nevers" it bites me in the butt every time. I think God laughs and says "wanna bet?" I guess there is always the option of adoption, huh?

this is interesting

I have received this e-mail from several different people and I always find it intersting to see what other people say to answer these, so I thought it would be fun to blog this and see if I get any responses.

What time is it? 5:39

Nicknames: Missy, Lissy, Lis, Miss Lissa, and many more...

Piercings? Double pierced ears, and no tatoos I might add

Eye Color: Brown

Place of birth: Wabash

Favorite food: Pizza!

Ever been to Africa? No, the only place out of the states is Bahamas and Canada

Ever been toilet papering? Honestly no, according to my parents that was trespassing, which always made me mad because all my friends did it and never went to jail or anything.

Love someone so much it made you cry? Oh yeah! I was heartbroken when this one guy and I broke up, but it all worked out in the end.

Been in a car accident? Yes, I totaled a 1 year old car with less then 30,000 miles on it, slid on ice and hit a utility pole, I was ticked because I had just paid it off less than 3 months earlier, now there is a really nice car with a bent frame sitting in a local junk yard, makes me sick thinking about it...

Croutons or bacon bits? Not a huge fan of either one, but if Iwas forced to choose it would be bacon bits hands down!

Favorite day of the week? Any day I don't have to work, so basically the weekends

Favorite restaurant? Olive Garden or any other Italian place...does pizza hut or papa johns count??

Favorite flowers? Any my husband picks out for me, just got some really pretty ones last week just because he loves me...isn't he sweet?

Favorite sport to watch? Hockey (I love the fights), and figure skating.

Favorite drink: Moo-Lattes from dairy Queen, or when I am not feeling so rich, diet pepsi.

Favorite ice cream? Edys cookie dough, or coffee flavored (any brand)

What color is your bedroom carpet? Dark Green

How many times did you fail your driving test? None

favorite fast food restaurant? McDonalds hands down! Can't resist those happy meal toys either.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? The Disney Store

What do you do most often when you are bored? Play on the computer, read, watch TV, sleep, take a walk, or if its summer, go swimming.

Bedtime? Before I got pregnant, midnight, 1:00, now the earlier the better

Favorite TV shows? was friends, now everwood

last person you went to dinner with? my husband

Ford or Chevy? Major GM fan, so Chevy hands down.

What are you listening to right now? The whir of the computer and the shake of the ceiling fan.

Favorite color? dark green

Lake, Ocean or River? Ocean

Have you ever ran out of gas? No, I have always been taught by my parents that they wouldn't help if I ran out because it was my responsibility to watch the tank, and it always scared me that I would get stranded, so since the day I got my liscence I have only let my tank get under 1/2 just a hand full of times. And when that does happen I panic until I can get to a gas station to fill it again.

Well, there you have it, that is how I would answer these questions, what about you??

pregnant moment

I have had some very frustrating and embarressing moments the last few months and the story goes that this is quite common in pregnancy. Well, I'm tired of it. It started in the first few months when I managed to hit the garage with my car, yes the same garage I have been pulling into with no trouble for 4 years, and left a nice scratch on the car AND minor damage to the garage, then in the same week, managed to ruin my 5-year old flat top stove when I boiled something over and even though I knew better, panicked and used a knife to scrape it off, now what would possess me to do that?? I KNEW NOT TOO!! But did it anyways, and of course, dented the surface and ruined the burner so we had to go buy a new stove. Then one night left for work and when I came home the door was standing open and I of course freiked out thinking someone had broken into the house only to find out later, I simply hadn't closed it behind me when I left. Among other things, I constantly drop things and am completely clutzy, everyone looks at me like are you drunk or something? Its embarressing! You completely lose control of your own body. But last weekend I think tops the cake. I went to the vet clinic where I work last Sunday to do the chores, you know, routine stuff, letting the animals out for bathroom break and give them food and water, clean cages and all that fun stuff . Had been there about 1/2 hour or so when I let a dog out as I had been doing and stepped out in the exercise area to poop scoop from the last dog and the door swung shut behind me as it had been doing the whole time except this time, yep you guessed it, IT LOCKED! Of course my key is inside the clinic and my cell phone is in my (of course) locked car, the sun roof was vented but not open, so I knew even if I climbed up on the car I wouldn't be able to reach the locks, so I went and started looking outside for something to pick a lock with and of course found nothing, then the more I thought about that the more I decided that was okay because that was breaking and entering anyways, so I had nothing left to do but start walking. I walked to the nearest town to an apartment complex. Come to the first driveway and there is a van parked there, I'm thinking good, someones home, I go up and knock, of course no one answers, so I go to the second drive, 2 cars in that driveway, someones gotta be there right? NO, or at least noone answers the door, well way down the way an old guy is sitting outside with no shirt on (EEWWW) sunning himself, drinking what looked to be his 6th or 7th beer according to the empty bottles on the ground around him, talking on his cell and of course watching me going from door to door. I am really feeling like a fool at this point but also desperate so I walk down there, he was like can I help you? I was like can I use a phone, so he tells the person he is talking to that he will call them back and hands me the phone, so I was able to call my boss and she was able to come down and unlock the door and let me in, I was thanking God that she was home! Then I thanked the guy and started walking back to the clinic to wait and a person in a red car says "Hey, do you want a ride"? I was like no thanks, they were like "but i'm going that way" I was like thats okay the walk is good for me. So I walked back to the clinic and that car never passed me. It reminded me that you should never get in a car with a stranger, who knows where I would have ended up. Anyways, thank goodness it all worked out in the end, but with all the pregnancy adventures I have had so far, I wonder what I have to look forward to.