secrets

secrets! I have a few of those right now, and one in particular is just starting to eat away at me. It even pops up in my dreams at night occasionally. It is one of those I want to share with someone just so it can stop wrapping around my mind and squeezing, like it is some sort of alien. Like I am possessed with this creapy creature from men in black or something. Like it is this thing that has entered me and just has taken over control and I am powerless to stop it. It is a secret that would crush a friend and so many people if the confidence was betrayed, so I simply can't tell. This would affect so many lives of people that I know and love. This has been said in complete confidence and it is one I wish I didn't even know anyhing about. It is one of those that is said once and never to be spoken of again. It is to be taken to the grave. I guess I am hoping that venting about the idea of harboring this secret will make me feel better. Maybe in my mind I will now feel like I have been able to talk about it. Without revealing any details. I am going crazy, and this is a desperate attempt to stop that. I don't want to lose a friendship by revealing it, because I know I would, and this person is one of my dearest friends and I never want to hurt them. I just wish the situation didn't exist. But things are what they are and I can do nothing to stop it. Although, I wish I could!!